Flowing
from some significant and not-so-significant conversations this past week, my
thoughts are running along the rail ties of the daily commute.
That
is to say, life is life.
“Is
this the real life?...”
(Aside—one
of my students put “Bohemian Rhapsody” in the big bowl game and no one else
knew what it was haha)
Yes.
This is it.
During
college, I would get frustrated when people talked in eager tones about the
ever-elusive “real life,” and was often encouraged by the reminder from my
youth pastor that youth are not only “the future” of our world, a country or
the Church, but an active part.
A
body with many members.
A
child is still a person, evidenced by nuggets of perspective or wisdom uttered
unassumingly by a little one as well as moments of stubborn pride in an
obstinate child.
Even
so, this last week, I have had quite a few moments of clarity and confusion in
pondering what it means that this is my life now. for now. Seasons change,
seguro, but we settle in to the rhythm and rock of the daily grind. And this is
good. And there was evening, and there was morning, the next day.
People
may expect a foreigner to have endless adventure and discovery and luxury when
abroad.
That
is ridiculous.
No,
you’re not crazy if you thought that, many people, especially Westerners, do
travel in luxury and style, but we’re kidding ourselves if we forget the
messiness of real life, of relationship, community, communication etc.
My
life on a given “boring” day consists of waking tempranisimo—as in 5 am—to the
birds and the bus and the sun peaking up over the mountains. I make coffee for
my roommate and for me, get ready, head over to school for devotions, muddle
through the craziness of middle school ups and downs, have a meeting or
substitute teach, head home, walk to town or go on a run, do some grading or
planning, waste time on facebook, make dinner with Kate, skype a friend, wind
down, get ready for bed, read a bit, say goodnight to Jesus and the barking
dogs and it starts over again. I don’t even have super thrilling plans for
vacation; I’m trying to get the regular life part down.
Asi es la vida, verdad? (Such is life, right?)
Asi es la vida, verdad? (Such is life, right?)
With
that, I have also been reminded of the beauty of simple gratitude and how much
easier it is to complain or become impatient or return to our same old habits
or sins. Fruit like patience takes time to ripen and mature, and it won’t be
what everyone is clamoring after, but it is so sweet, delightful and worth the wait.
Sometimes
life is waiting.
Think
about all that goes into farming or simple gardening before the fruit gets
harvested. We all have to put in our time in the small things and we just grow
so impatient! Many jobs are hard work and thankless in nature, but it doesn’t
mean that they’re not worth their while.
Life
has a lot to do with waiting.
That’s
what the erratic bus schedule or long lines at the grocery store have been reminding
me lately. I grow weary, but I shouldn’t!
Even
then I am remembering (sometimes) to give thanks. I’m learning to stop and
breath in and out, whisper a prayer, in the mundane and the insane.
--both
when my students are getting noisier and driving me crazy and when they are
catching onto new concepts or making me smile.
--when
I’d rather rush and stuff food in my face and panic over procrastination as
well as when I take my time to enjoy the delicious delight of fresh coconut
chunks in my ice cream from the hole-in-the-wall vendor.
“Love
him in the morning when you see the sun arising. Love him in the evening ‘cause
he took you through the day. In the in-between times when you feel the pressure
coming, remember that he loves you and he promises to stay. When you think
you’ve got to worry, because it seems the thing to do. Remember, he ain’t in a
hurry. He’s always got time for you, so love him in the morning…”
Planning,
tilling, plowing, planting…
Still trying to learn "tomorrow tomorrow" patience. But am seeing beauty in the "boring" and waiting times. Proud of you! Loe
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